A Vietnam Veteran's Reflections On This Memorial Day Weekend

Lt. Les Payne accepts
"Best Battery" honors from
Les Payne
May 29, 2010
As a
Running for a senate seat in
Draft avoidance was common, back then, among patriots immune
to shame and irony. These middle-class heroes got the jobs and a career leg up
on their brethren who leaped to the cannon roar. Two such opportunists became
two-term,
Blumenthal’s public boast about
Thus, I was caught off guard, when at the recent funeral
of Lena Horne; a fellow
Perhaps, it was the moving tribute paid to
I told my fellow veteran on the steps of St. Ignatius Cathedral that I house no bitter feelings about the war or, for that matter, much feeling about my service at all. Back then, the thought of avoiding the military obligation of citizenship no more crossed my mind than the thought of accepting less than my fair share of the civilian benefits.
It is over this citizenship equation that I part company with the likes of Bill Clinton, Dick Cheney and Richard Blumenthal, running for Sen. Christopher Dodd’s seat.
These narcissistic gluttons—as with the chicken-hawks—consistently place narrow group interests above country and themselves above all else. Yet, this Memorial weekend, each of them—along with the Tea Baggers and the whole of the Republican Party-- will station himself, flag pin in place, hand over heart, yakking some boilerplate about love of country.
As with all males of my family, I was determined to make my parents proud, and to shatter the Army stereotype about black leadership.
“Leadership is not imbedded in the negro (sic) race yet and
to try to make commissioned officers to lead men into battle—colored men—is
only to work disaster to both,” wrote U.S. Secretary of War Henry L.
Stimson in his diary on Oct. 25, 1940. “Colored troops do very well under white
officers.” (Substitute “coach” for “officer” and, with rare exception, you have
the thinking of most team owners in professional sports in
As a 24-year old, 1st Lieutenant commanding a
138-man, multi-million dollar Nike Hercules missile unit, I repeatedly won
quarterly honors as the “best battery” commander at
White army officers, and more than a few Negroes, who somehow felt—as did Secretary Stimson—that “leadership is not imbedded in (African-Americans),” were irrevocably dumbfounded by my “best battery” commander citations.
Conversely, I was astounded at every turn by the level of
white, male mediocrity, which by 2001 would make its way into the White
House. Meanwhile, I had to make do with General William C. Westmoreland as my
boss during the year I served in
This son of a
Avoided like the Ebola plague, Davis never had a roommate, ate alone in the mess hall, and he rode to football games on crowded West Point busses—sitting alone on his bench seat. Despite four years of alienation, the man who became the first African-American general in the Air Force, finished 35th in a class of 278; Westmoreland finished 112th.
North Vietnamese General Vo Nguyen Giap had fun chasing this racist piece of mediocrity from delta to highlands and back again.
As for me, I arrived in
From that first day to the last, it was clear that
In its naïveté,
Conducting war against both history and right at the same time, as John Foster Dulles once counseled, will not achieve victory ever.
The question this Memorial Day weekend is: has
It does not seem so.



A decent young man's arrival in Vietnam--you're describing an American saga worth capturing in literature and on the screen.
For me, you're also describing something more than excellence versus mediocrity. It appears also to be strike at the heart of the questions facing the nation -- in your case and in the case of governance of the republic--of comparing knowledge born of experience versus deep ignorance. You come from a place of hard-won knowledge versus the idealized land of an America that never existed, inhabited by the people you're describing -- Westmoreland, Cheney, Bush and yes, Clinton. That fantasyland--jingoistic and based on fraud-- weaves its tales, destroys and seeks to wipe away everything and every person that doesn't play in the same cloud.
In the era of enforced ignorance -- we're likely to see even more disassociated leaders than Bush and Cheney and company.
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Nice read,thank you
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As an African-American veteran who had similar military experiences I identify with this important piece. My father served, my two brothers served, and my late sister was an officer and served in Vietnam.(Curiously, African-Americans are generally seen as "unpatriotic"). While Americans sometimes reluctantly admit defeat in Vietnam they rarely mention the carnage of perhaps as many as 3 million Indochinese killed in that theater of operations, mostly civilians, as is the case in most wars. Although war is glorified in this culture, exploited veterans of an economic draft continue to get less than their due. Meaningful foreign policy change may be coming, but it isn't evident to this writer- if it's coming at all it's coming at a snail's pace.
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